i used to work alongside this girl

www.tiffanycalvert.com ... she (her work) is inspiring me to paint again.

hey L, part 2

ignore what you think should've been, whatever happens, that is your life.

hey L

the rule is always do only one thing at a time.

i got my yellow and white cord

i have been initiated!

Amazing

i have my own world, and in my own world, there are people who each have their own world. animals, trees, stones too. each have their own world in my world.
as opposed to the common ideology that i am just a subset of one universal world.
when i close my eyes, this is my world.
when i open them, that is my world.
whatever darkness or brightness i see, is limited to my senses.
my notions are limited to what you tell me, my pains, and my joys too.
and it's only through similarities and differences of other things that i can understand them and myself.
Einstein proved the theory of relativity. and somehow i was supposed to learn about Einstein as part of my destiny, to prove my little 'my own world' theory. and this is my world. so whatever i feel has to be true. and whatever you say bounces off me and sticks to you, just like glue.

using a pencil

is so cool. one should be allowed to make mistakes. erase, and re-sketch. your ideas, are just that - ideas. the freest form of mind. and as they travel from inward to outside world, the signal picks up noise. so sometimes what comes out doesnt feel quite right. that's why i love my pencil. it never yells at me. it just says, "ok, that's not quite right. let's try again".

batizado notes

1. in a fast fight, do not follow straight kicks with spin kicks directly. they will be slow and predictable. do something in between like step back, esquiva, then kick.
2. absolutely any kick can follow a spin kick, be creative.
3. be mindful of your partner's position at all times, whether you are on your feet, in the air, on your head or your hands, spinning. don't stare, but take quick sharp glances to determine your next move.
4. use your ginga wisely to give fluidity to your movement.
5. when you just buy the game in the roda, take a minute to collect yourself while you ginga. scope your partner's intention. is he/she playful or violent?
6. use fakes. they are pretty.
7. use floreiros. everyone will love you.
8. after a move, slide your foot gracefully back into ginga, unless you know for sure you can slip in another quick move.
9. don't try to memorize your game, Cap is absolutely freestyle.
10. relax your style for the most part. only stress really cool moves for emphasis / style points.
11. unlike other martial arts, the floor is your friend. learn to love the floor.
12. play against a mestre as often as you can: the best way to improve your game.
tbc

standing on the shoulders of giants

more on this later...
but a lot of how we learn in western schools is by starting you off with the terminology or language commonly associated with a subject. you know, same way a dictionary is structured: word, then definition.
but the way the subject was learned was by experience, a reoccurence of patterns. something had to happen to make someone pause, and say, "hey what's that called... i definately should remember this"...
i definately don't feel like we should get caught up in language and terminology before we know what something is for ourselves. experience first, name things after. use the name to communicate / and keep a nickname too, for yourself to remember / pronounce how you like

Mestre Bimba founded Capoeira Regional

lists

- not gonna remember it 10 seconds from now.
- keeping related things close together.
- throwing away as much as poss.
- divide and conquer: break it down.
- chew, before speaking.
- don't like to start and stop.
- mess gets forgotten.
- fell in love with beauty.
- many many undiscovered things...

Meetup.com

sucketh!

i wanna

just say that what i want, ahh, is taking a lot more time to figure out... like like like like when we were kids what we wanted was immediate and fun. direct. but i dont wanna the same things i wanted as a kid. i mean the standard G.I. Joe was awesome! an icecream cone from Mr. Softy, when i saw one, was awesome! and i was happy.... i guess what i wanted was momentary and spontaneous. i think i wanted the spontaneity more than anything else. yes, that's it. and i think that's what i wanna now. not just spontaneity, but believable spontaneity... not like a seven-winged mouse swooping down from the sky.. but you know a simple, fun change every now and then.

well, let me end by saying that i hate the words: institution, sermon, lecture, preach.
i love the words: temple, silence, poem, and pasture.

go fly a kite

let the birds see it
let them know you are alive
and that your spirit still flies

blood and gore